Wednesday, October 31, 2007
I love the fact that I can pull my legs up to my chest. My thighs are still huge, but it is nice that I can do this. It just really makes me feel so much smaller. :)
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Monday, October 29, 2007
Somewhere in my head, was I trying to see if they were "worth" the cost? This is about my health. I need protein, and sometimes I will need protein bars for when I cannot access other food choices. It just makes me mad that I was trying to justify the cost.
I am excited about taking my measurements on Thursday. I am doing them on the first of every month. I started this at the beginning of September. I wish I had done this all along. Of course I would have needed one heck of a measuring tape to have done my pre-op measurements. (Man, I can only imagine how scary they actually were!)
Sunday, October 28, 2007
I am going to keep you guys updated on my weight loss, but I am going to "try" to not weigh as much. I am seven months post op, and I've blogged about trusting my surgery and the decisions that I make, but I still have a hard time with this. I really think I need to step away from the scale for a bit. I'd like to work towards only weighing myself once a week. I am just going to take baby steps right now.
My vacation is coming up soon! Woooo Hoooo!!! 18 more days!
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Friday, October 26, 2007
Here are the stats:
- I have lost 148.8 pounds in total!!!
- I have lost 63.4% of my excess weight.
- I have lost 37.8% of my starting body weight (surgery weight).
- I have shaved 23.3 points off of my BMI.
- I am 53.8 pounds from an "overweight" BMI. (This is my next big goal.)
- I am 44.9 pounds from being in "onederland."
- I am 85.8 pounds from reaching goal and having a normal BMI.
I am so thrilled that I had the DS seven months ago. It was the best decision that I ever could have made. I have so much more energy than before. There are so many "little things" that have improved, that you would only understand if you have been morbidly obese your whole life. Life is really grand.
Woooo Hoooo!!! I am glad it is the weekend! I have one more short meeting, then I am ready to relax!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
I got this new black dress which I really like, but here is my bigger rant. I miss my boobs. It is not that I had a lot to begin with, but I really don't want them to completely disappear. We don't get to pick and choose what parts of our bodies lose weight. Getting a boob job will be one of my first priorities once I reach goal!
Nothing too exciting is happening today. I am going to try to get my eyebrows waxed today after work, they so need it. I can't stand plucking them!
On my lunch I am going to the gynecologist. What fun! Until just recently, I had no idea that my birth control was not effective because of the DS (we malabsorb too much). I think I am going to get the NuvaRing. My other option is the shot, but I have heard from multiple people that they hurt.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Here is the chorus:
1. It's Five O'Clock Somewhere (Alan Jackson)
2. Hurts So Good (John Mellancamp)
3. Jack and Diane (John Mellancamp)
4. Tubthumping (Chumbawamba)
5. I'm Gonna Be ... 500 Miles (The Proclaimers)
6. Love Shack (The B-52's)
7. Jungle Boogie (Kool and the Gang)
8. Fore She Was Mama (Clay Walker)
9. Margaritaville (Jimmy Buffett)
10. Cheeseburger in Paradise (Jimmy Buffett)
11. Walking on Sunshine (Aly and AJ)
12. Amazing (Josh Kelley)
13. Sweet Home Alabama (Lynyrd Skynard)
14. Rehab (Amy Winehouse)
15. Big Girls Don't Cry (Fergie)
16. Brown Eyed Girl (Van Morrison)
17. Lady (Lenny Kravitz)
18. I'm a Joker (The Hit Crew)
19. 1985 (Bowling for Soup)
20. Black Horse and the Cherry Tree (KT Tunstall)
21. Rockstar (Nickelback)
22. I Try (Macy Gray)
23. Radio Nowhere (Bruce Springsteen)
24. California Girls (David Lee Roth)
25. Hey There Deliah (Plain White T's)
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
I am going to read some of my new book....
Research-Based Strategies to Ignite Student Learning (This book looked awesome since the woman who wrote it was a neurologist and then became a teacher.)
I'm also going to finish up Words, Words, Words by Janet Allen. It really is a good read, but so many other things have gotten put on my plate, I have not had a chance to finish it.
My new issue of "Mental Floss" magazine came yesterday, so I think I will read part of it too.
I am also going to work on some encouragement cards for some of the teachers I work with at my various schools. This is the time of year where some teachers can easily start to get discouraged. I've got some really sharp teachers that just need some kudos.
I am starting to make my list of books that I want to bring on vacation too. I know I am not going to take any professional books (although I do love to read them). So far, I've decided to take:
- Love in the Time of Cholera
- On Call in Hell
- Landmines in the Path of the Believer
I'm open to any suggestions! Time to wrap up at work so I can head home.
I seriously have nothing to wear for my vaction which is in 24 days. I have shorts that are 4 sizes too big, and those are the closest things I have to fitting. I have got to work on that this week.
Has anyone out there used a pet sitter? I am going to have to get one for my cats. This is the first time I will have done that. I talked with a lady, and she seemed really nice. I am going to get her references, and schedule her to come over to my condo. I am just a bit leary of leaving my cats in the care of a stranger. They are my babies!
Well time to get moving. I have three meetings today. The first one starts at 7:30. Enjoy the day!
Monday, October 22, 2007
- I have lost 62.6% of my excess weight.
- I have lost 36.9% of my body weight from my surgery weight.
- I have shaved 22.7 points off my BMI.
- I am 57.2 pounds from having an "overweight" BMI.
- I am 89.2 pounds away from my goal weight.
Right now my goal is still 159 pounds. This is putting me at the high end of my BMI. I am not ready to change it yet, but I have started pondering just how nice it would be to get below 159. I'd love to see 145 on the scale. The absolute dream number for me would be 130. I am not sure where I will be happy and comfortable number wise on the scale. This will be something that time will tell. I know a lot of people say that the mirror will help me to judge, and how my clothing is fitting.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Onto the next subject....The World Does NOT Care If You are Fat...
Each day we are confronted with a zillion choices on food to eat. On Friday, I was at a school, and they had a "Chili Cookoff" for the staff. I must have had ten teachers tell me to make sure I stopped by and got some chili. I stuck with my plan of what I had brought to eat. I have to make choices each day on what is best for me to eat. I have to take responsibility for my eating.
My friend had lap band surgery a while back. (This is the same friend I have expressed concerns with earlier on her very light hearted decision to have WLS.) We spent the whole weekend together. I was FLOORED by how much she can eat. I am almost seven months post-op and I cannot eat like that. I am a firm believer that you can "out eat" ANY weight loss surgery. I am not hoping she will fail, but watching her this weekend made me have serious reservations about her success.
I had a blast at homecoming this weekend! Above are a few pictures I took. I am working at taking more pictures. For so long I wanted to hide behind the camera, it is strange to be the subject of the camera now! :)
Friday, October 19, 2007
I am so excited about going to Homecoming after work tonight. I should have a great time! I am looking forward to spending time with old friends and catching up. I will have lots of pictures to share. Have to go now, need to finish packing up my protein snacks and clothes for the weekend.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Every ounce down is important. It means I am on the path to a healthier me.
When I went into surgery, I had no idea I would be at this point now. I am amazed. I know that the best is yet to come.
I've got to work on packing snacks for Homecoming Weekend. I don't want to be caught off guard, and have to make poor choices. A few things I will be bringing for certain are: beef jerky, peanut butter, protein bars, protein drinks, and nuts. These staples will help to keep me on the right track. I am learning that being prepared really is half the battle.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I tried on the next size down and....
I can wear a size 22!!!
I still wear a size 24 in blue jeans. I am on cloud nine over the 22! I have not been a 22 since my freshman year of college. (That was short lived too, because it was because I was taking phen-phen. Before that, I was a 22 in the 8th grade.)
I was rereading through my blog and on August 7th I was working towards getting into a size 26, and now, two months later, I am at a 22!
I am almost out of sizes that begin with a "2". This is so thrilling! Maybe I'll be in an 18 sometime in January!
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Here are my most current stats:
- I have lost 35.8% of my overall body weight (from my surgery weight).
- I have lost 60.6% of my weight to reach goal.
- I have decreased my BMI by 22 points!
- I am 61.6 pounds until reaching an "overweight" BMI.
- I am 93.6 pounds until my goal!
My vacation is exactly THIRTY days away! I am so ready for it. When we go to Cozumel, they have a Mayan excursion you can take. It is for seven hours, and includes a great deal of walking and climbing. At 393 pounds before surgery, I would have never taken this before. I am so looking forward to doing this!There was another excursion that involved a "zip line" which I wanted to do. I will do this next time. My weight is still too high for me to feel comfortable doing that. The next time I post a zip line picture you will see ME on it. (Give me another fifty pounds, and I will certainly be doing this!) Does that not look AWESOME???!!!
The other thing this "zip line" makes me think of is "the trolley." The trolley was something we had at 4-H Camp growing up. You had a "seat you sat on, but it is the same idea of the zip line. I went to 4-H Camp for nine years. I was always too big to ride it. I am looking forward to being able to do the zip line in the future. Having surgery was the first step in my life of not letting my weight hold me back (physically and emotionally) from doing things.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Another first for me: I bought underwear from a regular store. This may seem insignificant to some, but the only place I have been able to get underwear the past few years has been Lane Bryant and online. Here is the bigger kicker...I didn't have to buy the biggest size!
Here is the biggest shocker...I bought TWO pairs of HEELS!!! I have not worn heels in twelve years! I used to say it was because of my left ankle (from a break), but I was simply too fat to wear heels. I am going to have to practice in them over the next week or two before I will feel confident enough to wear them out. I got a black and a brown pair.
I am getting my hair cut and colored tomorrow. I gotta start hiding this grey! I am going to go slightly lighter than what my hair is now. I don't want highlights right now because of the maintenance, and I have had a hard time finding someone who does highlights to my satisfaction in the past.
I like feeling feminine and girly.
About a week post-op, my periods have returned. They have been regular every since. What I have noticed is that each month, the intensity of my period side effects (stomach cramps and lower back pain) has increased greatly. Last night from 1AM to 3AM, I was in bed doubled over with pain.
Thank heavens the pain has subsided this morning!
Saturday, October 13, 2007
My BMI has dropped 21.7 points since surgery.
My next goal is to have an OVERWEIGHT BMI! I need to lose 63.7 more pounds.
I am so happy I could do cartwheels! (Ok, I can't do them yet, but you wait, I will be able to do them!!!)
Something that I noticed today...going up a flight of stairs does not leave me out of breath. Strangely enough for me, this was WORSE the first several months post-op than it was for me to climb the steps pre-op. I have climbed the stairs several times today, and didn't even give it a second thought that I was already to the top of them. Wow...no effort! It is great to see how the other-half (healthy-normal weight people) live.
Speaking from the kitchen of "normal weight" people. The lady I watch kids for on a regular basis said last night, "The boys forgot about the chocolate cake, it got moldy, so I threw it out." As a SMO person, I would have never thrown the cake out. The cake would never had the opportunity to get moldy. I would have gorged myself on it. Thank heavens I'm not who I was!
I have to work everyday to continue to progress forward.
Also, wanted to briefly write about my hospital experience visiting Mallory. When it was my turn to hold her, I had to sit in the rocking chair. I was freaking out that I wouldn't fit. I did fit in the rocking chair! It wasn't even a tight fit. The chair was a "normal" sized chair, not some huge rocking chair. When I was looking at my pictures from that day (see a few posts back), I noticed how defined my face looks. That really blew me away. I could really se the difference in my face. It was a nice feeling.
I am going to have to break down and buy two new pairs of jeans, a few new bras, and a winter coat. I am beyond needing them.
Friday, October 12, 2007
I am working some this weekend. I am happy that next weekend I will at my college's homecoming! I have not been back to Morehead in seven years! I know it will be a lot of fun. I will certainly take and post pictures from it!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
I weighed in this morning at 256.6 pounds. I have now lost 138 pounds. I have lost 7 pounds so far for this month.
My goal was to be 255 by my vacation November 16th. Maybe I will lose another 5-10 pounds before then!
Monday, October 8, 2007
When you start out at a size 36, being able to wear a size 24 is a huge accomplishment! I can't wait until they are too big!
By the basics I mean: Protein Shakes. I am going to have three shakes a day, and perhaps a few pieces of cheese. I have found protein shakes that I really like. When people try to give the line that they can't stand them, I just don't buy it. This is the information age! Search the world over until you find a drink that tastes great. When you find it, buy it in BULK!
I am blessed by the fact that I still have ZERO hunger. I truly do consider this a blessing. I don't think that switching back to only protein drinks for the next week or so will be that difficult. My friend who had the lapband surgery said the other day that she was glad her appetite was starting to return. I'll be happy if mine decides to stay away for the rest of my days! I fought my appetite and head hunger for too long. Now, I can just fight the head hunger, and not worry about the appetite part.
On a more annoying note, I googled my name, and found myself on my surgeon's home page. I am going to get this fixed ASAP. There are a lot of nosey people out there, and I don't want the world to know my business.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
I have always worn skirts that went down to my ankles. These have been a source of comfort for me, because I felt like they "covered" up my enormous frame. As I am losing weight, I want to start wearing things that are somwhat shorter. To be honest, I doubt I'll ever be a girl who wears anything that is shorter than knee length skirt/dress wise. It has taking some time to get to this point. I know I am not at my "goal" weight, but I don't want to wait until my goal weight in order to start wearing cuter clothes.
I have lost 3.6 pounds this month so far. My weight loss tends to pick up towards the end of the month. I am guessing it has something to do with my period.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
- I have lost 34.5% of my body weight from the day of surgery.
- I have lost 58.4% of my total desired weight loss.
- I have dropped 21.3 points off my BMI.
- I am exercising for at least 30 minutes each morning, and have been doing a shorter workout in the evening.
- I have just under 100 pounds to lose to reach my goal weight!
I would love to lose 15 more pounds before my trip on November 16th. I think it is do-able, but a more reasonable goal would be 10 pounds.
I am so thankful for Netflix and my IPOD. When I am working out, I either watch a DVD or listen to music that I've downloaded from ITUNES. They keep me moving daily! :)
A small wow for me....
I was able to lower my steering wheel down a notch. I always had it on the highest notch, so I could get in and out of the car. I lowered it down a notch, and was able to get in and out without any problems.
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
I suspect the biggest reason is that I have lost a lot of weight in a short period of time, and my body is desperate, and tries to cling onto some pounds. STOP CLINGING! I am going to lose this excess weight! I AM! I am determined to do this more than anything else I have done in my life. I will lose all my excess weight!
Monday, October 1, 2007
I went to the tanning bed for the first time today. Lets just say that things have changed greatly since the last time I have gone. There were ten zillion types of beds. The lady was very sweet, but finally I just asked her to put me in a bed, I didn't care what kind. I was only in there for six minutes (since I am so white).
Also today I was in an elevator that said, "Maximum Capacity: 2500 pounds or 16 people." Granted this was a very old elevator. I did the math....That means they are assuming that the average person weighs 156 pounds. Yeah, you can tell this elevator was old. I know, I know, I shouldn't be on the elevator, BUT I had a ton of training materials that I had to get up three flights of stairs.